The Life Of A Random Dreamer

Hey everyone, First of all, I guess I should apologize for not uploading for so long. My life has been very busy and whenever I tried to start a post, I couldn't finish it somehow. I'm very sorry, but  here I am now! So, about a week ago I read this book called 'Fangirl'. The book is written by Rainbow Rowell and I could really relate to it. The book is about a girl called Cath, she and her twin sister Wren go to college for the first time and while Cath just wants to sit in her room and write fanfiction, Wren wants to go out and 'have fun'. Now you may wonder why I want to talk about this. Well, while reading the book I just kept comparing Cath with myself (and Wren with my stepsister). I mean, when I'm not at school or at work I am probably at home, reading or watching films (probably Disney).  I even write sometimes to (like I am now), but I never really write stories. And I sometimes feel like all my stepsister does is go out (which of course isn...

Hey Guys, So today I found out that I'm not good at celebrating birthdays. Or, well, it's not so much the birthdays I'm bad at, but the birthday parties. When we celebrate birthdays in the Netherlands, we invite our whole (direct) family, all our family-friends and all the friends of the person whose birthday it is. Most of the time, the friends of the birthday boy/girl come over on another day as the family and family-friends. As I'm typing this, my stepsister celebrates her birthday, which means everyone is packed at the living room. I was there too, sitting on the couch, listening to all the stories that are told. But then it hit me: I don't belong in this crowd. All the conversations around me were about parties and stupid, drunk, decisions. First of all, I don't go to house parties or clubs, and second of all, I don't drink booze. Not because my parents don't allow me, but because I just don't want to. So listening to stories about bein...

Hey guys! Sorry, it has been a while since I wrote my last post, but ever since school started again I almost have no time at all! And to be honest, the time I didn't spend doing homework the last few weeks, I spent reading! One of my friends made me read the Percy Jackson series, and I am glad she did! But reading those books brought up a problem I have been experiencing while reading books the last few months. Because while reading books, I get this feeling that I don't really belong in my family. I am kind of like Mark Baker in the film 'cheaper by the dozen'. Why I would think things like this? Well, I am the most quiet kid in the family and dare I say the 'smartest' in my family. I don't want to sound too full of myself, but it kind of is the truth. But with this 'being smarter than the rest' comes the fact that I don't understand my family at all. I don't get some decisions my siblings or parents make and find things they find logi...

Hi guys! Lately I feel like time flies by! I feel like the summer holidays have just started yesterday and now they're almost over already! I often wonder where all that time goes and why time seems to go so much faster, but I never have the answer. When I was younger I always thought that time went by too slow and I was always disappointed to see that only a minute had passed, when I felt like half an hour had passed! Now I'm disappointed to see that half an hour has passed, when I feel like a minute has passed. Funny how things can change in just a couple years. I guess it feels like time goes by more quickly, because as we grow older, we develop a greater sense of time, and are constantly aware of the time. Which we obviously aren't when we were younger! Also I think I want to do more stuff in a smaller amount of time, so it feels like I have less time. So in a week I need to go back to school and have almost no spare time left, because of the ridiculously big amo...

                                  "We'll never be as young as we are now."                                                        ~ Never be - 5sos The concept of ageing quite scares me, because you'll not only get older, but you will also look different and you might not be able to do things you used to do. Of course getting older and gaining life experience can be beautiful and a lot of beautiful things will happen, but I'm afraid that I will wake up one day and think: "I'm   old !" But that is not the only thing that scares me about getting older, not at all. I'm also terrified that I will not be content with my life and with the choices I made when I was younger! I'm afraid of being unhappy and not being able to fix that, because I'm not physically...

Hi there! So today I'm going to share a random fact about me, which is: I just love looking at pictures of the universe! For some reason it just makes me feel calm and infinite! Although I believe that the universe must stop at dome point and that there is something even bigger than the universe, I also believe that the universe is so big that we will never know for sure if the universe really is infinite. As you might have read in The Fault In Our Stars  by John Green, there is an infinite series of numbers between 0 and 1: 0,1 0,01 etc. and there is an even bigger series of numbers between 0 and 2. But somewhere after millions and millions of numbers, there must be an end to all these numbers, because another number also exists. After 2 comes three, so also after 2,999999999999999. And yes, it's true, some infinities are bigger than others, but are things really infinite? Oh I need to stop rambling, you get me right? You don't have to agree, but I hope that you get why ...