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Ageing

                                  "We'll never be as young as we are now."  
                                                     ~ Never be - 5sos
The concept of ageing quite scares me, because you'll not only get older, but you will also look different and you might not be able to do things you used to do. Of course getting older and gaining life experience can be beautiful and a lot of beautiful things will happen, but I'm afraid that I will wake up one day and think: "I'm  old!"

But that is not the only thing that scares me about getting older, not at all. I'm also terrified that I will not be content with my life and with the choices I made when I was younger! I'm afraid of being unhappy and not being able to fix that, because I'm not physically or mentally able to fix major mistakes any more. 

I'm also afraid of 'wasting' my time by making wrong decisions and that I will hate myself for wasting that time when I'm older, because I could have used that time for something else. But then I realize that whenever I do something I like, I will never waste time, because I was happy doing it! And of course I'll have to do things I don't like to do, but that doesn't matter if it will bring me a better future or if it will make someone else very happy! 

Maybe I should be less afraid of things like these and just live my life, but I feel like it's okay to feel afraid for things like these, because if you aren't afraid you don't think about them when you have to make important decisions. So be afraid, but don't let your fear take over your life! Live in the moment and remember, life isn't measured by the breathes we take, but by the moments that take our breath away!

Have fun guys!
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